Life

On 40.

Last week, surrounded by the beauty and magnificence of Zion National Park, I turned 40. It felt like a very big deal and also like nothing at all.

Somewhere in my past, there’s a girl who can’t even fathom making it to 20, much less 40. For that girl, the present was so hard and so painful that it made thinking about the future an impossibility.…

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Life

Things I Bought Myself for My 40th Birthday

When I was younger, birthdays felt so stressful. I remember being anxious about turning 16, as if that was something significant, as if it was a ripe old age. It’s different now. I’m not quite 40, I still have a few more days to soak in the sunset of my 30s, but I’m close enough to know it’s not going to be a significant life event.…

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Life, Time in Review

February.

February is such a short month. The runt of the litter even in her longest incarnation. All month, the brevity of February felt like it was looming over me, waiting for me to do something, to do all things. Mostly, February felt like it was chasing me. It felt like making your way up a rollercoaster, steady clicks ticking down the seconds, ticking away the time you’ve got left before a whoosh of effort drags you to the end, ready or not.…

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