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24 Things I Didn’t Hate in 2024

THE MOJAVE TERRAVAN. Despite 2024’s shortcomings, it will forever be the year I bought a van and started building it out, all to ultimately head out and spend part of my life on the road. The van has been a consistent source of delight since I bought it at the

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March.

March gets such a bad rap, y’all. She’s brought us a lot of chaos over the years, including a global pandemic, but she’s my birthday month, and I love her. March is almost always a banner month for me, and this one was no different. I did a lot of

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A woman stands with her back toward the camera gazing at snow-capped mountains in the distance.

On 40.

Last week, surrounded by the beauty and magnificence of Zion National Park, I turned 40. It felt like a very big deal and also like nothing at all. Somewhere in my past, there’s a girl who can’t even fathom making it to 20, much less 40. For that girl, the

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Things I Bought Myself for My 40th Birthday

When I was younger, birthdays felt so stressful. I remember being anxious about turning 16, as if that was something significant, as if it was a ripe old age. It’s different now. I’m not quite 40, I still have a few more days to soak in the sunset of my

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February.

February is such a short month. The runt of the litter even in her longest incarnation. All month, the brevity of February felt like it was looming over me, waiting for me to do something, to do all things. Mostly, February felt like it was chasing me. It felt like

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23 Things I Didn’t Hate in 2023

MONUMENT VALLEY. I’d wanted to visit Monument Valley since I watched Forrest Gump in 1994, and 2023 was the year I finally made it happen. It was worth the effort to get out there and the moody March weather only added to experience as the monuments shifted in and out

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Sadie Anne Goose, Wolf of my Heart   

A few weeks after Sadie died, I sat down on the kitchen floor, got drunk on tequila and tried to weave the pieces of her life and death into a cohesive narrative. It felt important to write a thing, to have some sort of tribute out in the world dedicated

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Maybe It Won’t

Sometimes, when things change, you have to hold a funeral. You have to light some candles, say some words, feel some feels. Sometimes, you just have to say goodbye.  — I got married young. Twice. After my second divorce, at 30, I tried to patch the broken bits with chaos.

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This is Claude

In the months after Sadie died, I followed a bunch of dog rescue organizations. Luke, my other dog, has always been part of a pair. He was surrendered to our local SPCA along with a twin sister before I brought him home and then he spent a decade plus with Sadie.

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The Week it Rained Kittens

It was a Monday when kittens started falling from the sky. I didn’t know then that the kittens had fallen from the sky, just that they were in the way. Half a second before letting out Luke, my 70-pound, bird-killing, husky mutt, I spotted a very small, very young kitten

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21 Things I Didn’t Hate In 2021

Just when we thought 2021 was done lighting dumpster fires, raining COVID and murdering joy, it took Betty White from us. Here’s what I didn’t hate about this shit storm of a year: RUNNING RACES. I did a handful of virtual running challenges in 2020, and while they definitely helped me

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